17072009

Went back to SRJC today! & I didn't say hi to maykoh(superrrrr proud of myself) (:
Met my previous schoolmates and realised how much they meant to me, except HAIRY.

Talked to Serena about aunt and her behaviours. I told her that she was in a religion called Jehovah's witnesses. She told me that it wasn't really christian or it was a more extreme side of christianity ( near terrorist probably ). & the believes that they hold on to are kinda warped, which explains her bizarre behaviours at home. I briefly mentioned about donating blood after reading a poster and she immediately snapped and told me that her religion don't allow transfusion of blood. Serena then told me about this documentary about a man with face tumour who was facing death refused to undergo surgery because he didn't want to accept other people's blood as he was jehovah witness too.

Well I don't care anything about her believes or religion but she should not forcefully force it on me. It's her religion, not mine. Not in the past, present or future. NEVER.

On a cheerful side, Harry Potter wasn't as bad I thought it would be. Maybe because I knew the story. It annoyed my bf to the core, without a proper ending. Haha, it was overall a very fun day with Lynn, hamster, bf and people from SRJC. I LOVE YOU ALL!

Life is not all sunshine and rainbows,
But I'll manage.

:D

A happy smile on a hectic day. (with barbara)




Anyway, I'm off to Southport tomorrow for holiday. Click to see the place I'm going!
http://www.pontins-southport.com

GRIEF

At first it was just loud noises, I didn't take notice of it much. Then I heard shouting and my uncle's cries of pain. It escalated to quarrels and I could hear my name clearly. My aunt had accused me of breaking up and ruining the family,and she was punching my uncle, slamming things and yelling at her top of her voice 'I feel like beating people up'. All because I wore shorts to school today(encouraged by school because we had loads of activities).

I stood at a corner sobbing hysterically, my uncle was nice. He stood by me. I felt cheated, utterly let down. All the talks of compromise saying I could wear shorts once in awhile outside but try to keep it minimal are lies. I did as what I was told, I only wore it outside twice in 3 weeks. Her reason was it attracted the wrong kind of attention.

Perverts, rapists, paedophiles don't target their victims based on shorts(I was wearing normal shorts, not the obscene show-half-an-arse type). Old women aged 80 are raped in their homes, kids were raped as young as 4, women in middle eastern countries get raped too. Were they all wearing shorts ? NO! Islamic women in middleeastern countries wear long tunics, covering every single part of their body except the eyes and they do get cases of sexual assaults too. So it is absolutely ridiculous to say that all women in shorts (school shorts, casual shorts, shorts above the knee) automatically attract attention.

Another reason she gave while screaming is that she didn't like it. She didn't like me wetting the bathroom floor so I squeeze myself against the wall when I bathe. She didn't like me sniffing my nose, I try my hardest not to even when I'm having a flu. She didn't like partying or sleepovers so I gave my word that I will keep it to the minimal. She didn't like me spending money on food outside so I agreed to take packed lunches(made by myself). It's dictatorship. I don't feel like I'm being treated or respected at all as a human being. I'm oppressed in every single thing I do. She only thought of what she likes and dislikes. She has never considered my feelings or my likings at all. I like wearing what I wear and I know my limits of what to wear. How would she feel if I say I don't like gardening and I forbade her to do it(although she loves it)?

I wonder if she felt just because I live under her roof for free, she has the authority to exert full control over me, knowing that if I get thrown out of the house, I won't have the ability to survive? That's called bullying.

I've made up my mind, if ever possible, I will not and would not choose to live with a maniacpsychotic bitch like her. Her tantrums are unpredictable and without warnings.

p.s , I'm banned from wearing anything above the knee inside and outside of the house. God bless.

LONDON TRIP

One word : EXCITING. (:

CHERRY COKE

You'll never find this in Singapore, NEVER!

PHASEL WOODS

Second day of induction week, heading off to Phasel Woods near Kings Langley for stuff like team-bonding games, pot-holing, rock climbing and loads of obstacle courses with school people.

Before boarding the bus, sitting at grasspatch outside school (:

Team-bonding games :

In a team with, Sana, Husnain, Iram, Clan and others. Totally beat the other team in every single challenge we had except tug-o-war. They had more people. But it was really really fun.

Pot-holing:

It's a really small tunnel underground that you will literally have to crawl on your bellies and stuff. Pitch black and everything, and ALOT of mud. Hate it.

Obstacle courses:

Had to go through alot of obstacles, mainly balancing ones and crawling under ropes etc. I couldn't and wouldn't do most of it. However, we were made to pair-up afterwards(mostly a boy and a girl). Paired up with Ashley only to realise that he is supposed to guide me through the entire obstacle course without touching me(only giving verbal help) while I'm BLINDFOLDED! I managed to complete it though which is weird. I couldn't do it with my eyes open but I could do it with my eyes closed. Ashley got it harder. He was blindfolded afterwards and had to carry a cup of water while doing it.

Whenever water is involved, people get wet. I was caught in between a water assault between Husnain and Ashley, landing myself half wet! Clan got me wetter though, by hugging me.

Rock-climbing:

Didn't manage to get to the top but at least I tried my hardest. haha. Managed to catch a shot of Sana's arse while she was busy reaching for the top.

Lastly, my sunburnt feet with a weird pattern on it because of my sandals!